Silence

Eve felt a claustrophobic silence everywhere in the house now.
Hard to imagine such a small apartment being so loud with no words.
The bed stretched on for hours...four corners that went on for days,she didn't sleep in it anymore, she fell asleep infront of the tv, watching dana's favourite chef make a dish with mushrooms and chicken in it,silently. Kylie kwong sprinkled salt here and drizzled wine there, smiling so wide and happy.
Eve took another drag of the dry rose she hadn't bothered to pour in a glass and swallowed, sadness oozing in her action, she missed her...
She missed her breath, silence and presence. She missed the warmth of a beautiful body,her breasts soft and full, even with the seasons changing and bringing a chill along,they had slept partially covered.

She missed the meaningless words they shared.
'pass the salt'
'am making coffee,do you want some?'.
'gosh,did you see what the tsunami did to japan?, I think the world is ending babe'.
'oh come on,not for atleast another 1000 years, well if it does,i want it to end with you in my arms'.
her sweet laugh..'Oh,you charmer you'.

She missed the cuddles and kisses, the touches and hisses,in the night,watched when she woke up horny,she missed reaching out and igniting her, sleepily making silent love, moving with her softly,gently, wordlessly, till after the hunger left when they would both breath softer till they again fell asleep,in eachother's arms.

She had tried calling again today,for the entire week she tried calling everyday and still dana refused to talk to her,she sent endless messages that were deleted before they were read, about how much she couldn't stand the pain in her chest.
The noise and silence in her head, and the loneliness.
I miss you, she wrote several times a day and pressed the green button.
What more could she say.
Words seemed so meaningless with the silence that had invaded her existence.
She cried softly.
She hadn't cried over anybody in a while, never this much. Sloppily licking her tears, wiping the mucous from her nose on the spread.
And yet the silence never once eased...

Silence

The confession

Dana came home to find eve had make dinner.
She promptly placed a glass of a nicely chilled rose in her hand.
'hmmm, what did you do now?' dana said smiling and gave her a warm hug.
'you feel so warm, it's chilly out there,winter is upon us, good thing I have my teddy bear'.
Eve laughed uneasily and kissed dana's neck.
'can't I just spoil my woman?' she said at last.
'what's for dinner?' dana said, kicking her pumps off and walking barefoot to the little kitchenette to peer into the pot,
'pasta and meatballs,' eve held a spoon with gravy on it towards dana's lips to taste.
'Hmmmm, this is very good, thank god am hungry', she kissed her quickly before rushing off to the bedroom to change.

'i have something to tell you...' during dinner she had tried to find the best time to bring the whole nto issue up but couldn't.
'sounds serious,am all ears..'
'i don't know how to say this, I hope you can forgive but I simply have to tell you the truth'
'i slept with nto', since there was no easy way out,she decided to blurt the truth out.
dana just sat there speechless.
'it happened more than once and I realise it was stupid and however I try to excuse it, nothing can make it right...'
She waited for dana to say something but still nothing escaped her now pursed lips.
'please say something babe...' she said softly.
dana sighed deeply and lay her head in her palms.
'you lied to Me..' she finally spoke, 'i asked you if something was going on and you lied to me'.
Eve couldn't think of anything to say, she got up and knelt between eve's legs.
'am sorry... Am so sorry, am so sorry baby'.
'please move', is all dana said.
A few minutes later she walked out of the door with an overnight bag,
' I'll fetch the rest of my things sometime....it's over eve'.