19.12.10

bleh goes fishing

It had been a while now since bleh and ‘the wife’ hit a dead end, after wallowing in misery for a good two months, eve was determined to introduce her to a few new people, number one on the list had been a young thing named poly, reluctantly she agreed to the meeting, only to come back a few hours later looking depressed.
‘what happened now?’ eve asked holding back laughter,
‘she looks like a man dude, I thought you had my best interests at heart?’
‘you know I do, I thought a change of scenery might do you well,’ they both couldn’t help laughing out loud.
‘baby steps kid, that big a change will lead to a heart attack’.
A week had elapsed and now they sat in eve’s lounge again,
‘there is someone I’d like you to meet,’ eve started tentatively
Bleh gave her the evil eye.
‘come on, she told me she likes you’.
‘do I know her?’ bleh was skeptical.
‘nope, that’s the fun part, she started liking you from your comments on my statuses’.
Bleh raised an eyebrow.
‘what do you have to lose?’
Bleh sighed heavily, ‘nothing I guess, what’s her name?’
‘hina’
They had then gone ahead to chat for a few days online, bleh, usually the sensitive, considerate type, found herself turning nasty, blame it on the fact that she now found women exhausting after her break up but she did not appreciate the persona she exposed towards hina who had shyly told her about the crush she had weirdly developed.
Feeling apologetic, she suggested they meet so she could redeem herself,
It was a hot Friday afternoon that they got together at the mall, bleh had had a hectic night before with the girls and mused about the wisdom of her suggestion the next day.
‘do you smoke?’ hina asked after they were finally seated in the coolness of a bar.
‘no, only when I drink, but you go ahead’.
Hina sipped on a beer,bleh - hungry from the night before had a grilled chicken salad and raspberry juice.

Smiling transformed hina’s rather bony face , the conversation went from alter egos to bleh’s previous bad attitude to beer and bleh’s lack of understanding of the concoction , it ended all too quickly.
They parted a coupla hours later, hina having had to do something and bleh be somewhere.
‘well….’ Eve turned a curious face to bleh later that evening as they caught up on the week’s events over a bottle of beer.
‘well what?’ bleh wasn’t going to make it easy for her.
‘out with it, did you like her, will you see her again, do you think she is pretty, curiosity is killing me’
‘hmmm, not really as pretty as I imagined, she does have a beautiful smile though – literally lights up the room’
‘and…’ eve was on the edge of her seat.
‘and she talks so well, it’s easy to just sit there and simply listen to her go on’ bleh smiled at that memory.
‘very smart too, and has a very powerful presence, it’s hard to put a finger to it, something about her…’
‘ooooh, so then, do tell please, are you seeing her again?’
‘it’s hard to tell, I know I would love to, but I don’t know if she feels the same, we will have to wait and see..,’
‘ok, fair enough, and dating, do you see it going that far?’ eve wasn’t giving up until she had all the answers.
‘I can truthfully say, I haven’t the slightest idea, she isn’t very easy to read, guess we just have to wait and see hey’
Eve was somewhat confused but let it be, bleh could be rather guarded.
She lifted her bottle instead, ‘to fresh beginnings’
Bleh raised hers silently, lost in thought.

10.12.10

men talk

Men talk.
‘tell me ladies, did any of you ever date men or was it clear for everyone at an early age what their sexual preference was?’ angel had her elbows on the table and both cheeks cupped in her palms.
They were all tipsy now and the topics getting more interesting, angel’s friend alex who had been bugging her to introduce him to her lesbian friends was listening intensely, obviously fascinated by the new topic.
‘I think I always liked women but one is always curious about these things, or maybe it’s the conditioning we get very early in life that makes heterosexuality the default mentality for most everyone’, dana said as she stirred her sex on the beach with a straw.
‘ I was 16 and so was he..’ she continued. ‘..the sweetest boy in the class probably, he helped me with my homework a lot and on one occasion he tried to kiss me, I let him cause I wanted to know what the fuss was all about, we later dated for awhile and even attempted sex acoupla times, it was passable if memory serves me right’.
Everyone’s eyes were on dana now and the questions flew, ‘what happened?’ eve managed to get in above everyone else.
‘ he was quite smitten with me hey, like a little puppy, it was ok until this new girl – came along, damn that girl was hot!’
‘did you ever have another manly incident?’ angel asked.
‘I don’t think I ever quite got the chance, the women…’ she paused for emphasis ‘..they only got more fascinating each passing year.’ Everyone laughed at that, dana’s eyes met eve’s across the small round table and they exchanged a discreet smile.
‘ and you baby?’ dana broke the look.
‘oh yeah, I did date a few okes before I dated women, never lasted and never meant much, it always felt kinda mechanical…I could never feel that emotional connection and the sex was always lukewarm.’
‘ so you never liked women till after that?’ angel threw in.
The music was quite terrible at c.ba, a few women danced without much rhythm on the dance floor.
‘my love affair with women started way before I even had the desire to act on them, I recollect having fallen for a number of them over the years, from as young as 8, but I never did much about it, blame it on the religious upbringing and the guilt and fear felt about it’.
‘what about now, any guilt or fear?’ alex put in gently.
‘now… I just feel like there is nothing more true or right, not that it’s easier dating women or anything..- all people are complex beings…’ she sipped at her margheritta thoughtfully.
‘ it is only that I don’t mind the drama or issues that they might bring into the relationship, I think that is what sexual preference is all about, what gender can you tolerate or do you have the need to put up with.

Men Talk

Men Talk